Hold It All Together

VS 1

I don’t feel it, I won’t feel it when the water runs cold

I don’t feel it, I won’t feel it when the lights shut off

I don’t feel it, I won’t feel it when the heat shuts down,

I won’t taste the days old bread we overeat to fill

I won’t smell used clothes from our neighbor’s good will

I won’t feel the chill, the icy way you dress up my name

I don’t hear the sound your fists make when you raise your voice

You smash my plate across the room wishing I was a boy

I won’t feel it when your boots punch through my bedroom door

CH1:

I hold it all together

Yes, I hold my head up high

Yet I hold onto fears of feelings

Won’t find a reason to fight

VS2:

I don’t feel it I won’t feel it with a bottle of wine

A bottle of pills, a bottle of gin, a bag of fast food super sized

I won’t feel it with a blue screen, and a plastic card, And I’ll always always always be

pressed for time

CH 2: 2x

I hold it all together

Yes, I hold my head up high

Yet I hold onto fears of feelings

Won’t find a reason to fight

VS3:

I won’t feel it I won’t feel a lovers touch

kind words, and gifts in the arms of love

Smiles and laughter and a space that’s held to say “I’m enough”

CH 3:

I hold it all together

Yes, I hold my head up high

Yet I hold onto fears of feelings

Won’t find a reason to fight

BR:

What a price I pay

It’s a choice I make

I fear if I feel

Something will break

A cistern of tears

A cistern of tears

CH 4:

I hold it all together

I hold my head up high

Yet I hold onto fears of feelings

Won’t find a reason to fight

I hold it all together

Yes, I hold my head up high

Yet I hold onto fears of feelings

Won’t find a reason to fight

I hold it all together

Yes, I do it all so well

Yet I hold onto fears of feelings

Won’t find a reason to fight

I hold it all together